AHHHH THE BOOK SIGNING WAS TODAY!!! *breathes*
There were way more people than we thought, so getting there an hour early didn't get us a seat. I couldn't see her at all during the Q&A :( Other than that, it was perfect! Of course, everyone went crazy when she came out. It was so much fun squeeing over everything she said, I'm not even joking ;D And surprisingly, she answered some questions that made me think more. Like this girl said something about how Jacob was basically being an ass in Eclipse and she defended him by saying that he is only 16 and Edward's definitely had a much longer time to acquire patience and maturity. She said since this is his first love and he sees Bella's changing as basically dying, he doesn't see any lines that he can't cross (if that makes sense). Especially after she kissed him back. She also talked about how people were having a hard time accepting the loving-two-people-at-the-same-time-deali
Until our group was called to line up, we had to browse for a while...I actually saw like, ten guys there! And some pretty cool shirts. Speaking of which, I didn't have time to get a t-shirt together :P I should have just used those tattoos from New Moon! Anyway, when my friend and I got up to her desk I just about died...I was pathetically star-struck. She signed our names and everything! But yeah, I said a probably way-too-enthusiastic thank you, and managed to walk a short distance before breaking into a squeeing/giggling fit *facepalm* But she was just as nice and down to earth as I thought she was...
So, yeah! So worth it! I also bought a feng shui book there since I'm planning on appyling it to my room at my dad's. He said my sister and I can get started with decorating soon!
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b) So I got soooooo unbelievably sick yesterday :P I was throwing up like nothin else for hours. And I'm deathly afraid of throwing up, which made it that much better. I'm feeling MUCH better now, though, and even ate some yummy spaghetti tonight. Oh, and I was trying to catch up on Lost, but found that we're missing a few! I'm so far behind, though, that I'll probably just have to buy the season and watch it then *sigh*
c) Cody's still playing the mixed signals game...grr. Don't even know what to do with that :/
d) I don't know how I didn't find out about this sooner, but I just discovered the whole Free Hugs Campaign! Ya'll know about it, right? I really really really wanna do it. Like, really bad. I know a couple friends who would be willing to do it, but I don't think I'd get as many hugs since I'm not an adult. And I just live in the subarbs, so I'm not sure if I even have a place where I could do it. Oh well, I'll find a way ;)
e) I finally finished The Amber Spyglass!!! OMGBESTBOOKEVAR. Will + Lyra = sososo cute :D
I certainly feel better :) I did a lot of thinking last night after reading
saymorre's lovely comment and finally realized the obvious. I need to stop focusing so much on finding that perfect guy because all I need to be happy is myself and my thoughts. I realized that I only looked forward to even days because those were the days I had a class with him. How ridiculous, when every day needs to be seen as a beautiful gift! I know it sounds so cheesy, but oh well XD
I had to laugh at myself today because I actually reconsidered trying out for volleyball for next year all due to my fear for being the bad person on the team that everyone talks about. Have I learned nothing from all this? Why can't I just say, screw them, I will be an allower. I will let them do what they want and do the same. Besides, I can manifest the ability to get better and learn, let alone make the team. Although, I don't know what I'll do if I decide to change schools after this year...which is kinda scary, because try-outs are pretty soon. God, why do they have to be now when it doesn't start until next fall?!
And yay for a completely new set of icons!
So, remember a few posts back when I talked about possibly liking one of my guy friends suddenly? Well, I definitely do. As in, I've never felt this much for a guy and I was so excited because he's been flirting with me SO BAD lately. He's usually a flirt, but it's gotten worse specifically (as far as I know) with me. He's been saying we should go and do this and this and this together, started talking to me on AIM, asking to share my iPod, giving me hugs, and so on. So I got really excited, thinking that he probably liked me too. Guess what he said today in Keyboarding? He mentions that I know that he's "like, in love with Shelby". Now, I remember him saying he liked her a long time ago and just figured he could like me too or not like her anymore. Guess not. There is no way someone could miss his signals. Why the hell did he lead me on for so long?! I was getting so excited because for once, I actually really really really like a guy. And he ACTED like he liked me too. And then proceeds to drop this huge bomb on me. *sigh* I really want to stay positive, but I just don't know how to be in this situation. I know I could think, "Fine, just attract someone even better who likes you just as much as you like them." *whines* But I want him!
I wish I could quote the entire book, it's so lovely.
I definitely need to go and meditate for a while...I've just gotten into a horrible mood after Matt said something without thinking whatsoever and now I'm sure I'm attracting lots of nasty things :( Unfortunately for him, he had me thinking about it all day and therefore, made me go off on a rather long rant to him this evening. But I will be a good girl and refrain from whining about it on here :)
One more thing: I watched the recent Heroes last night and OMG. Like, whoa. I have so many questions! That twist was just batshit crazy, yo. No joke, I was on the floor and could not breath for at least ten minutes, lol. You thought The Village had a twist? No. THAT mofo, was an effing twist.
Today was my first day using the process called Segment Intending and let me tell you...*whistles* I'm amazed. Segment Intending is an exercise taken from The Law of Attraction and here's a definition:
The process of Segment Intending is to simply recognize that you are moving into a segment where what you are intending is different from the last, and then to stop and identify what you are now wanting.
So it's basically when you recognize the different parts of your day (getting ready for the day, eating a meal, driving somewhere, etc.), stop, and give clear thought to what exactly you want to happen in that segment. For example, while I was walking to my French class today, I thought: I intend to fully comprehend everything on my French test today. I will answer correctly and confidently. Mr. Boesch will ask me easy questions that I will be able to understand during the speaking part and I will reply correctly and confidently. I will get a good grade on this test. And you know what happened? I did exactly that. I really feel like I did well on that test and all the questions he asked during the oral part were simple. This process really gives you clarity while you're trying to focus on and prioritize what you want. Before, I would just try and make sure I was thinking about what I want. Now, my mind isn't so cluttered and I can give myself segments in which I can envision my future and meditate. Also, a good suggestion Abraham gives is to think for each segment: As I'm entering this segment of life experience, it is my intent to see that which I want to see.
I had to laugh today, though, when I was walking home from the bus stop. It's a gorgeous day and it was so sunny and the breeze was blowing gently through the grass and trees and I felt so alive and happy...I actually started tearing up. I swear, all this "being one with the Universe/God/Spirit and your Inner Being" is making me super sensitive and sappy ;D
Seriously, if you haven't read the His Dark Materials Trilogy yet, you need to. Especially since the movie for The Golden Compass is coming out this year (yays!).
Speaking of books, I'm so excited because we've started Rebecca in English! I've only read the first chapter so far, but the writing is beautiful and I can tell I'm going to love it. It would be even better, though, if the kids in my class weren't so freakin ANNOYING. Our teacher said the first chapter would be slow but that the rest would be amazing, and they all immediately started freaking out. They had already decided to hate it because everyone's heard about how last year's class burned the books. I mean, they were literally moaning and groaning while reading a three-page chapter and they're in an Honors class? Mmmmmk. Good Lord, does anyone read anymore?
What we mean by the Art of Allowing is: I am that which I am, and I am pleased with it, joyful in it. And you are that which you are, and while it is different perhaps from that which I am, it is also good. ...Because I am able to focus upon that which I want, even if there are those differences between us that are dramatic, I do not suffer negative emotion because I am wise enough not to focus upon that which brings me discomfort. I have come to understand, as I am one who is applying the Art of Allowing, that I have not come forth into this physical world to get everyone to follow the "truth" that I think is the truth. I have not come forth to encourage conformity or sameness - for I am wise enough to understand that in sameness, in conformity, there is not the diversity that stimulates creativity. In focusing upon bringing about conformity, I am pointed toward an ending rather than to a continuing of creation. - The Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks
That really struck a cord with me today. Wouldn't the world be a better place if everyone could live by this?
I love deliberately creating my experiences! Already, I'm seeing the response of the LoA now that I've been focusing more on it lately. During my Creative Workshop this morning, I wrote and thought about having a more toned and thinner body. And at lunch today, I had a much smaller apetite than usual. When I got home from school and tried to eat a snack, I felt overly full after just a little bit! I even have a strong urge to go take a walk...I probably will, it's so beautiful right after it rains!
Also, the thoughts about what I want keep coming back to mind and the emotion caused by them just keeps getting stronger, exactly what the book said would happen! It's really exciting because of course, the LoA only responds to thoughts that cause strong emotion.
^^I seriously need to remember that. It answered a lot of my burning questions about the law of attraction. Most of the time, I concentrate too much on trying to manifest something I've already seen or experienced. But if I just keep looking for the aspects I want, I can attract my own unique creation :D I admit, I was losing my grip on the LoA before, but now that I'm reading The Law of Attraction, all the enthusiasm is coming back! I love this book so much - it explains a lot more than The Secret and provides plenty of workshops you can do. I can't wait to get Ask and It is Given from the library! Because AHHHHH NEED MORE WORKSHOPS FROM ESTHER AND JERRY HICKS. And I really want to learn more about spirit guides and meditation and whatnot.
*sigh* Life is just better when you know you have complete control over it.
Random change in subject, but I need to talk about this. I just had a somewhat big argument with my mom this morning about religion (we often have disagreements on this touchy subject). She's not religious, doesn't go to church, and is rather open-minded. She was raised Catholic, though. I'm definitely a Christian, but I don't go to church because my parents don't. And I'm so confused. I was saying that my sister said that to be a true Christian, you have to take the Bible literally and accept every aspect of the religion. But my mom says that I should be more open-minded and think for myself. I really don't want to take the Bible so literally because I don't agree with all of it. It says stuff like an eye for an eye and is against homosexuality. And that it's a sin to eat shellfish. Our culture has obviously changed a lot since those days, so I don't see why we need to listen to that kind of stuff. The homosexuality thing is what really gets me. Many Christians fight it so hard, but Jesus never even mentioned it. I feel like most of them pick and choose what they want to believe in and fight for, ignoring the stuff they want. I feel like you should just pay attention to the general message; how Jesus told us to live our lives. But I guess that would be picking and choosing, huh? So this is where I have my problem. Do you really need to take EVERYTHING in the Bible literally to be a true Christian? Or should I focus on being close to God and being more spiritual than religious? *BIG sigh* All I really want is to go through life having a good relationship with God. I just want to know what I need to do to achieve that...
Ever since I took a semester-long course where we skimmed over French, Spanish, and German in eighth grade, I've been interested in studying abroad in France. I've always planned on taking French in high school and after almost being finished with my first year taking it, I'm positive that I would have so much fun. I love the language, culture, and the landscape...it's all so beautiful! Then my friend, Adam, told me he wanted to do the same thing, and said I needed to get started right away if I wanted to do it in my senior year. So I've talked to my principal, guidance counselor, my parents, and I've checked lots of different programs. I'm beyond excited because my principal is the chairman for the board that evaluates students leaving and coming into the country, so he could make sure I get into the system! It's all about the people you know, eh? So I'm planning on spending an entire academic year over there for my senior year (quite possibly junior, but I'd rather not because I'll only have two years of French and some companies require three) which is perfectly fine with my parents and I've found like, 14-15 companies who will send you there for a year. It looks like it's gonna cost me around $8500, so I probably need to get a job this summer and start saving my money. And that doesn't even count the stuff you need to take care of yourself (calling card, buss pass, toiletries, clothes, extra curriculars, etc.), but I'm not worried about that because my dad will just send me the child support ($600) every month instead :D Just thinking about it gives me the chills...I can't wait! Can you imagine how fluent I'll be? And I'll be able to see if I'd like to live there someday!
Anywho...something quite unexpected has happened. I went ice skating with some friends recently and ever since then I've had some strong feelings for one of those friends. He was being a lot nicer to me and has been ever since that weekend (that's the case for two of my guy friends, actually...it's so weird!). And I can't believe I might actually *gasp* like him. He even said he had a great time and that we should do stuff like that more often, proceeding to invite me to a smaller outing for rollerblading. So is he just moving on to the one girl in our group he hasn't liked yet (to my knowledge, anyway)? Or what? And why do I like him suddenly? He's soooo not the guy I've been trying to manifest. It's still new, though, I need to think more on this :/
Btw, is this font too small? I write so much, I just didn't want to take over your flist. And...I think it looks cute for some odd reason ;)
Abarat: Abarat is a fantasy YA book I read kinda recently and its sequel is called, Abarat: Days of Magic, Nights of War. (Written by Clive Barker, by the way.) They're amazing! I loved everything about it: the writing, characters, plot, etc. The books are pretty twisted and out-there, which is always fun. It really stretches your imagination ;) A third book should be coming out soon.
mermaids: I've always loved mermaids! Especially as a kid...I was obsessed. I always loved swimming and thought it would be so awesome to have a tail and live in the ocean, lol. Mermaids would be the only game my best friend, Alli, and I would play at the pool. And of course, I loved The Little Mermaid.
classic names: I recently got into classic names like Charles (lovelovelove Charlie better, though!), Henry, James, Harry, and especially Edward (my two favorite literary characters are named Edward: Edward Cullen and Edward Rochester). Well, pretty much any old names, I suppose. I don't know why I love them so much, they just seem so...awesome. I find it kinda sexy, actually, when a guy keeps his name the way it is instead of wanting to be called Eddy or something. But that could be a side-effect of Twilight :D
Look at your LJ userpics list. If you have fewer than 50 icons, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five icons, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five icons, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List each one in your LJ, and tell everyone exactly why you have it, why it's interesting to you, what significance it has.
Fandom/Characters: Edward Cullen - Twilight
Made by:
Why: Edward IS my heroin, duh.
Fandom/Characters: Bella quote - Twilight
Made by:
Why: Of course, I love that quote (among others). Just wanna feel that way about someone someday...*wistful sigh*
Fandom/Characters: Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy - Pride and Prejudice
Made by:
Why: One of my favorite movies! And who doesn't love that scene, when Mr. Darcy struts up to Elizabeth while the sun's rising and proclaims his love for her AGAIN.
Love this meme!
Here's one from The Subtle Knife by Philip Pullman (great trilogy!)that really made me think of The Secret and whatnot:
"And she rejoiced in her blood and flesh, in the rough pine bark she felt next to her skin, in the beat of her heart and the life of all her senses, and in the hunger she was feeling now, and in the presence of her sweet-voiced bluethroat daemon, and in the earth below her and the lives of every creature, plant and animal both; and she delighted in being of the same substance as them, and in knowing that when she died her flesh would nourish other lives as they had nourished her."
Only because I'm really bored....this one's from
Anyways, I am so excited about all the new friends I have now! Hi, guys! Here's my AIM sn if you'd like it: phantomphan927. Same as my username.
I was wondering if anyone watched the premiere of The Tudors on Sunday? It's the new show on HBO about Henry III and it was so awesome! I love period movies and shows...the costumes are always fun to look at. However, it's pretty sexually explicit, so I'm not feelin so comfortable with acknowledging to my mom that I'm watching it, even though she said it was okay. Lol. It's like when I was sneaking the Sex and the City DVDs into my room; I didn't think she'd let me watch it. But she took the last season out of my room (I was done already, though) and never said a word, so I'm not sure how she felt about it. *shrugs* whatever.
PART 1: Your Birth
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Were you a planned baby?
Erm...my dad didn't want another kid, and my mom didn't care. So...no. Lol.
Were you the first?
Nope.
Who was present at your birth?
All I know is my mom ;)
Were your mum and dad married when you were born?
Yes.
What is your birth date?
September 27, 1991
PART 2: THE FAMILY
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Parents married or divorced?
Divorced when I was 8.
An only child?
No, I have a sister, Brenna, who's 10 years older.
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
Youngest.
Which parent do you get along with best?
Definitely my dad.
Do you have step-parents?
No
Do you have step-siblings?
No
PART 3: THE FRIENDS
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Do you have more than one best friend?
Yeah, I've got a few: Alli, Clare, Tiffany, Abby...and my sister, of course.
What do you like to do when you are together?
It's different with each friend, but mostly just watch movies and talk and whatnot.
Do you share the same interests?
Some, yes.
Which friend can you tell everything to?
Brenna...but Alli too, sometimes.
PART 4: YOUR PERSONALITY
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Do you have low self-esteem?
I used to have terrible self-esteem, until I read The Secret and discovered the law of attraction. I wrote a long post about it recently, (for my new friends).
Do you get depressed about things easily?
I used to... (see above question)
Do you consider yourself an extrovert (outgoing) or an introvert (reserved?)?
I can be both, it just depends on my mood.
Are you happy?
Very :D
Do you live life to the fullest?
I'm trying to!
PART 5: APPEARANCE
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Are you comfortable with the way you look?
I am now!
Describe your hair?
It's really long now and brown. I usually wear it straight and parted on the side.
How do you dress?
Usually just jeans and a t-shirt. I try to put a little effort into it with accessories and I really am a girly-girl, it's just that I hate buying outfits instead of things that I can mix up a bit.
UM...THIS SEEMS TO BE PARTS 6 AND 7
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Were you a strange child?
That's a good question. When I was younger, I think I was a bit of a dork because I read all the time and was SUPER shy. I went through a really rough time several years back, though, so I wasn't really interested in anything other than escaping into books...but I've become a lot more outgoing since then and I'm not a weird kid anymore, lol.
Do you have the same friends?
Well, I've been best friends with Alli for 10 years and Tiffany for about 5...so a couple.
What is your ambition?
Job-wise, I'm not positive yet. My goals are to find a career I love, travel a lot, and live in a big city.
Are you scared of growing old alone?
Yeah, I've always been scared that I won't find real love...I know, stupid, but it's true. I'm a romantic, what can I say?
Do you want to get married?
I'm not quite sure.
PART 8: THE OUTDOORS
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Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
I guess indoors. I love relaxing with a movie, book, or my knitting.
Favourite season?
Summer and Fall.
Do you like walking in the rain?
Only if I'm with someone who will make it fun ;)
PART 9: FOOD
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Are you a vegetarian?
Ha, no.
What is your favourite food?
Shrimp ramen noodles and pickles.
What food makes you want to gag?
Onions and tomatoes.
What is your favorite dessert?
Ooh, this chocolate chip banana monkey bread my mom made one time...mmm.
Favourite restaurant?
Red Lobster (I love seafood!)
PART 10: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE
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Are you single or taken?
Single at the moment.
If single, do you like someone?
Do fictional characters count? *cough*EDWARD*cough* <--- I concur.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
...
Do you believe in love?
Of course!
In other news, I'm really excited because my sister made a very good offer on the perfect future house for them. I just know they're going to get it and I'm so happy for them! I also saw Blades of Glory with Tiffany. OMGSOFUNNY. It has my two favorite comedy actors: Jon Heder and Will Ferrell. They were so perfect together...uh. My favorite line is when Jimmy's stalker says, "I'm still gonna kill you someday." lmao...I know that makes no sense, I just had to say it.
